Dear New Love,
I am so thankful for having you in my life. After all my heartache and pain the Lord blessed me with, I know it was all worth it. While I am anxious to have a husband that will love me like I have always wanted, my past still haunts me. It walks over me like a dark cloud. It tip toes in a silent room where only my ears can hear. It sits in the pit of my heart, lingering and pondering. It whispers loudly. My past has grasped my ankles and held me down so long that I am expected to have a broken heart always. My love is numb and unwilling to be expressed at times and it hurts me. As I look in your eyes I want to see the innocents but I know the guilt I place on you from my immature decisions such as choosing love, rather than letting love choose me. I wish a prayer would bring a miracle my way because I am scared to love you.
I am so thankful for having you in my life. After all my heartache and pain the Lord blessed me with, I know it was all worth it. While I am anxious to have a husband that will love me like I have always wanted, my past still haunts me. It walks over me like a dark cloud. It tip toes in a silent room where only my ears can hear. It sits in the pit of my heart, lingering and pondering. It whispers loudly. My past has grasped my ankles and held me down so long that I am expected to have a broken heart always. My love is numb and unwilling to be expressed at times and it hurts me. As I look in your eyes I want to see the innocents but I know the guilt I place on you from my immature decisions such as choosing love, rather than letting love choose me. I wish a prayer would bring a miracle my way because I am scared to love you.
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