Everything I am not makes me everything I am and right now I don't like it.
An image plays in my mind that I see as perfect yet I am so far from it.
If I could, I would touch it and love it but reality is where I stand.
My heart desires to follow the plan that will lead me to my fantasy.
However I have no control over it at least that is how I feel.
So until then I will admire the flocks of beauty that walk this earth.
I look in the mirror and critique myself, judging, wanting to be different.
It seems the harder I try the worst it gets and I turn to methods, quick fix.
Society puts you in a box yet I am wanting to escape free.
Actually society has had an affect on me because thin is how I want to be.
The lighter I get, the better I will feel and I will dance with my reflection.
Until then I will sit with my thoughts, mindfully eating and hoping one day I see who I want to be.
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